SWAP test?

Yes...finally I have the bull to go to clinic and do the SWAP test..and it was deadly painful..

I was really hope that he was there by my side, but I was alone. Accompanied by tears, that runs freely when the doctor do the test. The doctor said there's a swallow inside my body, and she injected a pessary to melt it down, until then, I cannot do any PAP Smear test. And I am waiting for the result, I am waiting alone..

I guess man never understand what kind of pain girl's been through. That's why it is very important for girls to be independent. And why I said so, because I've tried to tell him, to make him understand what is going on inside me. But, seems like he take it for nothing only.

Right now I feel really really down, afraid, cold, hallow, too scared to know the test result, am I normal?It is true, just some kind of fungus affection or worst come to worst beyond that.

Another week to know the test, and I am hoping that he'll be there with me bacause I really need him that time.

It's been forever..

It has been forever I guess, since my last posting. And I still remember the password.

A lot of things have changed in my life. I moved to a new house, got a better job. Mostly all my wishes had come true. Except one, get married.

Yeah I'm still with him. Tuhan memang panjangkan jodoh kami, hopefully it will last until end of the time.

My daily life totally changed. I had brought my life to a whole new leve. And his life too. My First Focus Resources Sdn Bhd is 7 months old now. He is a success. To himself and to me.

I think not too late for me to wish HAPPY NEW YEAR 2012 to everyone in this world. A new year with 1 wish. To get MARRIED. Biarlah ikatan ini sah di mata Allah.

But here I am still sitting alone, waiting for him to have at least 1 hour time for me. And I am still putting hope on him.

He read this blog once, or twice maybe but now maybe he is too busy with his work. I am still hoping he'll read this blog. Especially dedicated to him.

By the way, we are going to Bandung on 15th February 2012. Hopefully he will spend some of his precious time with me.

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My Mr Right...

I can say that I found my Mr. Right about three years ago right here in this Metropolitan City...

Kenapa dia Mr. Right? Sebab pertama, dia adalah cinta pertama saya..Sebab kedua, saya mencintai dia sepenuh hati saya dari dulu smpai sekarang and Insya Allah akan kekal selama-lamanya...

Girls out there, let me tell u something..How young u are, but when u being touched by true love, u will by hook or by crook get ready to take your relationship to another level..Marriage..

Saya nak share dengan  u all apa perasaan saya terhadap Mr. Right saya ni.. Saya x pernah bercinta sebelum ni..Dia yang pertama hadir dalam hidup saya, and segala pantang larang dalam percintaan x pernah saya tahu..Pada mulanya, apabila dia memegang tangan saya dlm keretanya dan menyatakan bahawa dia sayangkan saya, I was like, biar betul dia ni..xkan baru knl dh jatuh sayang and vice-versa. Tetapi selepas itu saya tahu, apabila seorang lelaki benar2 jatuh cinta,  perubahan sikapnya mula kelihatan.. Hatinya yang dianggap keras (Mr.Right saya ni HOD kat tmpt dia keje and terkenal dgn kegarangannya...) selama ini, menjadi lembut seperti kapas. Bahkan dia sanggup berkorban dan melakukan apa shaja untuk saya, termasuk deliverkan makanan waktu malam (waktu saya belajar dulu). Sekeras mana pun hati lelakinya, dia pernah mengalirkan air mata (tu first time saya tgk dia menangis) semasa nak hantar saya naik bas balik kampung...Time tu kitorg singgah Titiwangsa jap..

Saya tahu dan sedar, sentiasa tahu apabila dia sentiasa bersungguh-sungguh mahu melakukan apa sahaja demi saya seikhlas hatinya...Saya makin jatuh cinta apabila dia buat macam tu.. Then, saya tanamkan dalam hati saya, ternyata saya tak silap pilih teman hidup!!

Dia juga sentiasa buat hati saya senang dan yaang membuatkan saya terharu, dia mula mahukan perhubungan yang serius, bila dia berbicara ttg mahu memperkenalkan saya dengan keluarganya..bercakap soal perkahwinan...Saya rasa bahagia..Dan perbuatannya itu makin membuatkan saya mencintainya...

Mmg x diakui dia kuat membebel..tapi jauh di sudut hatinya dia mahu MENGINGATI saya..dia mahu perhubungan kami berjalan lancar tanpa sebarang masalah dan saya menghargai setiap bebelannya walaupun telinga agak sakit...Dan setiap nasihatnya itu, membuatkan saya bertambah cintakannya...

Semakin lama perhubungan kami, timbul pula pelbagai kembimbangan dlm benak otak saya ni,  termasukla akan kehilangannya..Tu perkara yang paling saya takut... AKAN KEHILANGANYYA...saya tidak mampu untuk berdepan dengan fakta : saya kehilangan cinta pertama...Tidak mampu... Walaupun dia pernah melakukan kesilapan, saya tetap bangun berjuang untuk dapatkan kembali cintanya...dan saya berjaya...moga-moga kali ni saya berharap dia sudi berjuang bersama-sama saya, untuk mekarkan lagi perhubungan cinta ini.

Lucu apabila difikirkan saya dan dia selalu berperangai seperti kebudak-budakan...hanya untuk menagih perhatian dan belaian manja...Dia sememangnya manjakan saya dari dulu hingga sekarang...Dan itu membuatkan saya bertambah cintakan dia...

Setiap kali saya ada masalah, orang yang pertama yang sanggup berada di samping saya adalah dia, tidak kira waktu, tidak kira masa...walaupun dia tak dapat berbuat apa-apa, sekurang-kurangnya dia sanggup memeluk saya untuk pastikan yang saya bukan keseorangan..Dan itu juga membuatkan saya bertambah mencintainya...

Kerja-kerja saya memerlukan saya untuk sentiasa keluar outstation dan dia sanggup ambil cuti untuk bersama-sama saya.. Apabila dia ada hal yang x dapat dielakkan dan saya perlu keluar outstation di tempat yang jauh, dia akan menggelabah dan risau x menentu..Dan gelabah dan kerisauan dia itu memebuatkan saya bertambah cintakan dia...

Dia sanggup menitiskan air mata semata-mata kerana saya..Dan setiap titisan air matanya itu membuatkan saya lebih menyintainya...

Dan pengorbanan yang paling besar yang pernah dilakukannya adalah meletakkan saya di tempat yang paling selamat iaitu dalam hatinya...Dan pengorbanannya itu membuatkan saya bertambah mencintainya...

Dialah Mr.Right saya...
Dialah kawan saya...
Dialah hidup saya...
Dialah Mohammad Fadzil saya...

Zetty~~~

I am looking forward for what will happen....

What will happen in the future? None of us can foresee the future, but we can prepare for it..

If only u have a want, then u will live ur life to the fullest to achieve it..Well, berfalsafah plak...What I want in my future? Basically these are my goals:

1. Kumpul duit banyak2 and siapkan umah mak kat Terengganu (I really really wanna change my family's life, really want)
2. Get myself deeper into my hobby which is gubah BUNGA DIP... maybe boleh buat bunga pahar dgn doorgift sendiri..Next week, will start to buy those things yg diperlukan : plier, dip, thinner, dawai, glitters, glue, batang lidi, pelilit and bla bla bla)...will try to do it at work...and home too...

3. Buy myself a Canon D80, I want it..instead og buying an Ipad, I think my interest is not to Ipad anymore but more to photographing as I am rite now is too darn exciting in creating/altering image...harganya?? boleh tahanla, kena kumpul 2 bulan gaji kot baru boleh beli..yg ni tahun depan insya Allah, as tahun ni budget dah lari...
4. yang ni a bit blushing to tell..hehehe.. Get married to a lovely creature namely Mohammad Fadzil..yang ni mudah-mudahan diijabkabulkan seperti yang telah dirancangkan...
5. Get both of us, me and my other half to Seoul Korea... We want to stand under the sakura flower and experience it all by ourselves... Really really wants this also...Badly want this..Only me and him, far from other, far from works as our schedule is a little bit hectic rite now.....

Lastly, all I want is him to be next to me..To hold me forever..To love me eternally..Then my life would be wholely complete....

~Zetty~

What happened?

What happened? no clue, no idea, no-thing...huhuh

Recently, my other half is so darn busy being a busy bee..he wants to setup his own company and i am included in his company profile...Good for both of us..

Regardless the new company, we also in the midst of buying a new baby from Proton.. Alhamdulillah loan dah lulus and tgh menunggu kereta kuar ja.. But why am I feeling so empty?? No idea.. I feel nothing, despite he constantly request for my opinions. I feel hollow, being alone at home, at work, everywhere.. Worst, I feel unappreciated. Why? Being abandoned perhaps. I want to talk, but he is way too busy to have a minute for me. Dinner? No more outside dinner with him now. He is way too far to have dinner with me. Outing? Also no. And why is that? He is too tired after doing he's job and setup-ing the new company.

And me? being left behind one more time. Just like old time. I am so darn tired to keep thinking about our relationship..

It's alrite girl...just have it he's way and go to sleep..u'll forget everything by then.. Just go to sleep...Sleep...

Wait!!!! It's working time la... just do your work girl...

Just got a call from him..I wish I am ready for the worst.. Being asked to find someone else...Senangnya mulut bercakap....

Feel like wanna cry...I am crying....and if he wanna end up everything (maybe he wants to move his interest to something else, or to someone else)...Allah je yang tahu...

I really2 need a tissue rite now... :(

What a girl like me WANT!!!

What girls want from their lovers?

L - Loyalty and love that is only for her and not for anyone else. You have to understand that when a girl falls in love, she will devote hers 100% to you. All you need to do is feed her heart with love and loyalty.

O - Own her heart wholely by giving your fullest heart to her. Be a man of honor who understand the HEART WISH. Maybe she is too shy to share it with you but all she wants is to be your other half, where u can tolerate to each other. Own her heart by giving her space in your life also. That is what a girl truly wants from her lover.

V- very extaordinary relationship that u are putting urself with her. Be different, be impractical, be something new. A relationship will somehow face a critical situation where u and her did not agree in one matter. All you need to do is relax, let things go, and say I'M SORRY to her.. Simple, a girl will always accept her lover's apology because we are girls. That is what I want too...

E - Everything else is not important than ur hug that makes she feels secure, safe, loved, being cared, being truly understood. Embrace her like your skeleton embraces your heart, your liver, your inner organs.. Embrace her like a mother embraces her child, embrace her like your embrace yor own belongings..


See, that is what a girl wants from her lover.. Love her, loyal to her, and make sure you marry her... Because girls dont do those 'break up' things with her true love, but girls strive to avoid those 'break up' things even though she was the one yang ucapkan kata2 perpisahan...Apa yang perempuan nak? Pujuk la....Peluk dia...Pujukan dan pelukan seorang lelaki boleh dan pasti meredakan gelora dalam hati perempuan....

Till then,

Love your lover ~ Zetty~

Salam Lebaran dari Azzatie Intan Suraya

Few days ahead to Eid Mubarak and few days ahead untuk balik kampung....Hoorayy!! hahahahha gelak lagi gelak lagi...rindu sangat dah ni kat family, gelak lagi...hahahah...pastu tahun ni dapat pulak jmpa nenek sbb kami sekeluarga akan beraya di Kelantan Darul Naim...hahahaha gelak lagi (puasa nih...ishk ishk) haaaaa....penat gelak...My other half? huh no comment at all, as he will be in KL during Hari Raya..kena keja..Persiapan raya? Entahla, as I will reach my hometown malam raya, so x tau la boleh buat apa. My sis form JB dah smpai sana last week. Hopefully she knows how to kemas rumah...hahahaha...My mum called my few days ago and told me that she is waiting for me utk gubah bunga kat dia...Hias umah cantik2...I was like, sedeynyer.....mak tgh tunggu kat kampung...ikutkan hati nak je balik hari ni...tapi nak buat macam mner...Time study dulu blhla balik a week before Raya, or ponteng kelas balik two weeks before Raya, sekarang dah keje..kenalah bagi komitmen kat keje...Plus, takut nak tinggalkan my other half awl2, takut org kebas...hehehe...On my side of persiapan raya, I think dah cukup dah semua..Dah dapatkan 1 jubah modern warna hitam maroon untuk mak, sepasang baju Melayu warna Maroon utk abah, sepasang baju Melayu warna Maroon utk my bro Shah, baju Ben 10 + kasut Ben 10 untuk my cute brother Shafiq and Iqbal, a jewel lycra for my mum, two blue dress for my nieces (Ika and Irah), a black dress for adorable Ida, and a baju kurung cotton English yang sangat comel untuk Ida..not to forget, a handbag for my sis.. Fuhhh..basically, dah habis duit..tapi takpe habis untuk org tersayang bukan habis beli brg yang bukan2.. Duit raya? Duit raya mak dah dah seperate awl2, dah kasi awl2, but for anak2 sedara and my siblings?? glurrrppp...bg seringgit sorang bolehla..as I need to save for my upcoming event~ UTM Convocation after raya and before $$$!! Nak balik kelantan, paling kurang nak kena menyumbang jugak siket duit minyak..adoyai...Tapi x pelah..we'll see how nnti..Duit raya adik2 tu gaji bulan depan pun blh kasi.hehehehe...still bulan Syawal what...

As for me, I got a nice white + orange jubah modern from Pekan Rabu, Kedah...An Esprit bag, which I craved deadly, a smartphone, a Baju Kurung Thai Silk and tu je la...Kasut je xde lagi..Maybe nak gi cari hari ni kat Times Square.. hari tu ada tgk satu wedge heels tu...cantik....colour beige...tapi xtaula ada ke tak lagi...mesti ramai org, bencinyer shopping yg crowded ni...

Still cant wait for this Thursday, x sbr sgt nak blik Terengganu...rindunyer nak beraya, nak kemas umah smpai berpeluh-peluh, rindunyer nak pasang lampu kelip2, rindunyer nak iron baju raya utk adik2, rindunyer nak cucuk sate, rindunyer nak bangun pagi2 buta bakar sate...rindunyer nak salam mak abah pagi raya...

Salam Kerinduan,

Azzatie Intan Suraya

27hb Ogos 2010~Merayau tanpa hala tuju

As I'm typing this, I dont know what the hell happened between me and my other half.. Are we arguing? Perhaps..Over what? Dont know...I was just joking this morning tapi dia cakap 'belilah yg patut je..Jgn beli yg x patut', then I asked him, apa 'yang x patut dibeli tu?', then dia cakap 'nnti bgtau syg bangkang', pastu cakap x habis... I was so damn pissed off bila dia cakap x habis...Macam dulu, selalu berakhir dgn "OK"... What's with that "ok" actually, I dont understand and I dont like the way he talks to me.... I wanna talk, but he wont hear me, I wanna ask, but he makes fool of me..

Hari ni terus hilang mood nak buat kje...Tadi pegi Plaza Warisan, ingatkan nak cari Beauty Soap tu... Pastu skali that salesgirl recommendkan sabun Taharah ni...okla kot...That time mse that salesgirl brief me about the soap, I google sendiri pasal sabun tu via my newly bought HTC Wildfire...hehehehe, kinda like it...So, I bought the soap...Quite expensive la jugak for a stupid soap but tgk kat internet pun harga lagi mahal RM2...And what else I got for myself? Not much as my other half already warned me to control my spending... I was the one yang penant keje...Of course I wanna buy something for myself...But I got I pouch for my phone...together with a cow keychain...so cute...And a tudung to pair with my blue blouse...Xde tudung biru, tapi I beli selendang putih yang ada bunga2 biru..Cantik, beli kat Central Market...

And I think I want to break my fast kat luar kot...Tadi pegi pusing Petaling Street tu nak cari beg untuk my sis, but lastly I found baju raya for my brother and baju Melayu for my dad has yet to be discovered...X pusing2 kl beli barang raya lagi...Or maybe beli kat kampung je kot...and petang ni mybe bukak puasa kat luar, or kat office je kot...join akak kat office yg nak bukak puasa kat office sbb dia jaga parking malam ni...Dont have mood to talk to anyone especially him...Sedey bila dia buat macam tu actually..Sedey sangat bila dia buat x endah, xnak pandang, stop the conversation just like that...Sedey sgt2, rasa nak menitik je air mata ni...He dont understand me at all...Biarlah, balik nnti just tido, esok cuti..maybe I can take a walk to Summit kot...jumpa Fatimah jap..Lama x jumpa dia...

Sob~~ Sob~~~

Kau Aku...Memang berbeza...Tapi kita istimewa...

Please do invest your precious 5 minutes to read this...Hayatilah dalam hati...

LELAKI

Lelaki bujang kena tanggung dosa sendiri apabila sudah baligh manakala dosa gadis bujang ditanggung oleh bapanya.

Lelaki berkahwin kena tanggung dosa sendiri, dosa isteri, dosa anak perempuan yang belum berkahwin dan dosa anak lelaki yang belum baligh.


BERATKAN?

Hukum menjelaskan anak lelaki kena bertanggung jawab ke atas ibunya dan sekiranya dia tidak menjalankan tanggung jawabnya maka dosa baginya terutama anak lelaki yang tua, manakala perempuan tidak, perempuan hanya perlu taat kepada suaminya. Isteri berbuat baik pahala dapat kepadanya kalau buat tak baik dosanya ditanggung oleh suaminya. BERATKAN??
Suami kena bagi nafkah pada isteri, ini wajib tapi isteri tidak. Walaupun begitu isteri boleh membantu. Haram bagi suami bertanya pendapatan isteri lebih-lebih lagi menggunakan pendapatan isteri tanpa izin ini.
Banyak lagi lelaki lebih-lebih lagi yang bergelar suami perlu tanggung. Kalau nak dibayangkan beratnya dosa-dosa yang ditanggungnya seperti gunung dengan semut. Itu sebabnya mengikut kajian nyawa orang perempuan lebih panjang daripada lelaki. Lelaki mati cepat kerana tak larat dengan beratnya dosa-dosa yang ditanggung (ikut kajian laa..)
Tetapi orang lelaki ada keistimewaannya yang dianugerah oleh Allah SWT. Ini orang lelaki kena tahu, kalau tak tahu kena jadi perempuan. Begitulah kira-kiranya.
WANITA :

Auratnya lebih susah dijaga berbanding lelaki. Perlu meminta izin dari suaminya apabila mahu keluar rumah. Saksinya kurang berbanding lelaki. Menerima pusaka kurang dari lelaki.
Perlu menghadapi kesusahan mengandung dan melahirkan anak.
Wajib taat kepada suaminya selagi tidak bertentangan hukum syarak atau mendatangkan mudarat pada dirinya. Talak terletak di tangan suami dan bukan isteri. Wanita kurang dalam beribadat kerana masalah haid dan nifas yang tak ada pada lelaki.
Pernahkah kita lihat sebaliknya??

Benda yang mahal harganya akan dijaga dan dibelai serta disimpan ditempat yang tersorok dan selamat. Sudah pasti intan permata tidak akan dibiar bersepah-sepah bukan? Itulah bandingannya dengan seorang wanita.


Wanita menerima pusaka kurang dari lelaki tetapi harta itu menjadi milik peribadinya dan tidak perlu diserahkan kepada suaminya , manakala lelaki menerima pusaka perlu menggunakan hartanya untuk menyara isteri dan anak-anak.
Wanita perlu bersusah payah mengandung dan melahirkan anak, tetapi setiap saat dia didoakan oleh segala haiwan, malaikat dan seluruh makhluk ALLAH di mukabumi ini, dan matinya jika kerana melahirkan adalah syahid kecil. Manakala dosanya diampun ALLAH (dosa kecil).



Di akhirat kelak, seorang lelaki akan dipertanggungjawabk an terhadap 4 wanita :

1. ibunya ,

2. isterinya ,

3.anak perempuannya , dan

4. saudara perempuannya.



Manakala seorang wanita pula, tanggungjawab terhadapnya ditanggung oleh 4 org lelaki ini :

1. suaminya,

2. ayahnya,

3. anak lelakinya dan

4. saudara lelakinya .



Seorang wanita boleh memasuki pintu Syurga melalui mana-mana pintu Syurga yg disukainya cukup dengan 4 syarat sahaja :

1. sembahyang 5 waktu

2. puasa di bulan Ramadhan

3. taat suaminya dan

4. menjaga kehormatannya.



Seorang lelaki perlu pergi berjihad fisabilillah tetapi wanita jika taat akan suaminya serta menunaikan tanggungjawabnya kepada ALLAH akan turut menerima pahala seperti pahala orang pergi berperang fisabilillah tanpa perlu mengangkat senjata.

MasyaALLAH.. .sayangnya ALLAH pada wanita ....
Seorang wanita adalah pelengkap dan sememangnya istimewa di sisi seorang lelaki , tetapi ingatlah wahai lelaki...kamu sebenarnya adalah istimewa disisi Allah, maka dengan sebab itu DIA mengangkat kamu menjadi pemimpin...maka dengan keistimewaan itu, JAGALAH dan HARGAILAH wanita sebaik-baiknya. .supaya kelak masing2 lelaki dan wanita dapat pulang mengadap Allah dalam keadaan istimewa disisiNYA..

Subhanallah....

As I was googling over the web..at first, this came out...The Blue Lake in Belize...Subhanallah cantiknya ciptaan Allah.. Check this out guys...Stated in Beliza, depth : 145 metres...A place magnificient for divers.. But sharks in there... Them, I scrolled over what else beyond my expectation placed in this very beautiful world.. and Antelope Canyon is the answer.. Located in Arizona.. I really love to see that by myself..

They call this sand stone..Very beautiful...

Yang ni lagi la menakjubkan..Rasa takut, kagum, sume ada..The Hell Gate, in Uzbekistan...

This place in Uzbekistan is called by locals “The Door to Hell”. It is situated near the small town of Darvaz. The story of this place lasts already for 35 years. Once the geologists were drilling for gas. Then suddenly during the drilling they have found an underground cavern, it was so big that all the drilling site with all the equipment and camps got deep deep under the ground. None dared to go down there because the cavern was filled with gas. So they ignited it that no poisonous gas could come out of the hole, and since then, it’s burning, already for 35 years without any pause. Nobody knows how many tons of excellent gas has been burned for all those years but it just seems to be infinite there. Kekal hingga hari ni...

Masha-Allah....

I am talking about Hari Raya~

Selamat hari lebaran, minal aidil walfaizin, mari bersalam salaman, saling bermaaf-maaf...aaaa...uuuuuuuhhhhhhh...ooooowwwhhh~~~~~

Lagu raya means what? U need to think about Raya lar yar... although today baru puasa ke-6 (eh eh dah puasa ke 6?) Tambah plak ada permintaan from my mum..untuk belikan dia jubah moden.. Tambah plak dah bersepah orang jual baju raya...Tambah plak tahun ni sume adik-beradik sayer dari Johor akan balik ke Terengganu...Tambah plak mak nak itu ini...Ok mak, nanti along belikan.. And, also thinking about the kuih raya, bekas kuih raya untuk mak, and duit raya for cuddly anak2 sedara, a handbag for my sister, a baju Melayu for my dad.. Fuhhh...So at last, I listed down the items to be bought.

Items:

1. Baju raya myself ~ one baju kurung and one jubah ( RM 200) RM 150 je...
2. Jubah for mak and baju Melayu untuk abah ~as my daddy tu x suke orang belikan baju raya kat dia, but we'll see how is he when I force him to wear the baju Melayu(RM 150)
3. Bekas kuih raya for mak ~ bekas kat umah tu daha bertahun x berganti, mak nak harapkan sape lagi (kata mak), harapkan anak sulung dia je la... (RM50)
4. New wedge-heels for me & tudung & accesories~ compulsory (RM70)
5. Baju raya untuk anak2 sedara ~ try to get baju kebaya for them la, mesti cute glerr... (RM 100)
6. Handbag for my sister ~ yang ni kne survey dlu dan begantung pd harga SALE!! (out of budget dah nih)
7. Barang2 untuk buat kuih ~ as my other half will pay for the mixer, I'll pay for the bahan2...mesti bertolak ansur and mestilah ada pro and contra..Nak harapkan dia je, kecian dia... And the bahan will approximately cost me about RM 70 kot...I know a place yang blh dapat brg2 buat kuih dengan harga murah ~Bake With Yen~...yes Yen, I will bake with  u.. (^ ~ ^)
8. Finally, duit raya...yang ni yang penat eden nak pikiokan...agagagaga.. estimated (RM300 for mum & dad, RM 150 for anak2 sedara & adik2, & RM 50 untuk bebudak yang berkunjung ke umh nnti ~ hummm yang ni abg ngah nnti ada kat umah, biar dia la bg duit raya kat budak2 yang dtg umh)

So kalau nak diikutkan, spending for Raya kali ni agak banyak la jugak memandangkan hamba sudah bekerja dan perlu menyara keluarga... dekat2 seribu gaklah tuh...alahai...but I will try to cut the cost extremely..bju raya for mak abah, anak2 sedara remain the same, so as Duit Raya will remain the same..outfit for me je la nak kne cari yang murah2 sket...

Till then, bye...

Wait! Wait! Wait! One more thing, beraya ngan HTC Wildfire~ the coolest windows phone from HTC, baru keluar June 2010~ la tahun ni..Sukerrrr sangat..Thanks sayang...

19th August 2010 ~ Perlis

As I'm typing this post rite now, I am peering over Eagle Park Resort to book the room online...And guess what? My other half is coming with me..As he dont want to let me go to Kangar all by myself, he decided to come along. Eagle Park Resort so called Bukit Ayer Jungle Park Resort, claimed to be the most greenest resort in Perlis, wanna see how green they are..Heheheh..
I will be there for only 2 days as my other half need to work and he almost run out of Annual Leave..As we already agreed to have a peace and tranquil vacation, and my company will support all the expenses..Heheheh, I go to Perlis for my work la..Handover one of our branch there to landlord.. Simple kan? Serah kunci jer...

Then I found out that Eagle Park Resort ni dekat ngan few places..Contohnya:

Gua Kelam 

Situated within Kaki Bukit town, the highlight of this park is Gua Kelam, a 370-metre limestone cave which is illed with interesting stalactite and stalagmite formations. This well-lit cave is believed to have been hollowed out from a limestone massif by an underground stream over many eons. Located nearby is Gua Kelam II which is suitable for more experienced cavers.

Bukit Ayer Waterfall

The Bukit Ayer Recreational Park is located next to our resort. Visitors can experience the sights and sounds of a tropical rainforest or bathe in cool streams that meander through the forest.

Nature Walks

All land activities take place within our private reserve, while river activities occur on the nearby rivers. As an ecolodge, we are especially careful to run all expeditions with conservation of the environment in mind. Groups are small usually made up of 4-6 persons and with a maximum of 8 people. This way our guide can adapt to the interests of the group and their abilities and preserve plant and animal life by keeping disturbance to a minimum.

Jungle Trekking

Venture into the lush green vegetation of the primary rainforest and let its beauty envelop you. All your senses will be rewarded as you surround yourself with the sights, sounds and smell of the rainforest. Under the expert direction of our guides, you will see the rainforest through different eyes as you are introduced to this ecosystem and the plants and animals that inhabit it.

Snake Farm

Located not far from our resort, it is one of only two snake sanctuaries in Malaysia (the other in Langkawi), the Perlis snake farm houses an amazing array of snakes and other reptiles. There are enclosed exhibits and garden enclosures.
Visitors can catch the amazing King Cobra resting in their cages or take photographs with tame snakes. Who knows that we can learn from them. Love nature, love animals.

Grape Farm

Have you ever been to the Grape Farm ? If NO, the this is a good opportunity to learn about how we grow grapes, yes GRAPES, in Malaysia.

If YES, then you will be surprise to see that Grapes can also be grown in the tropical country and yes, they really taste as good as the one grown in colder counntries.

Herb Garden

The Herb Gardens is located just next to our resort. A large variety of herbs, spices and traditional plants, numbering over a 1000 species, are grown here. Visitors can see them, learn about their medical application and watch how they are cultivated in this park.

But most of the activities above need me to give my 100% energy. Dahla time puasa, adeh..xleh nak mandi sungai, pnjat bukit tu sume...tapi, I heard Kangar got finest Bazar Ramadhan, and lots of juadah berbuka also..I just hope my handover so called little vacation will be full with tranquility...

Cant wait until next week...

Selamat Menyambut Ramadhan al-Mubarak

Kepada semua umat Islam seluruh dunia, Azzatie Intan Suraya Bt Zamani mengucapkan selamat berpuasa... Mohon maaf sekiranya sepanjang hidup/tahun ini ada silap salah, saya menyusun sepuluh jari memohon maaf terutamanya kepada kedua ibu bapa saya, adik adik saya, kakak2 saya, abang2 saya, kawan2 di pejabat, di UTM, di SMK Sultan Omar, Mohammad Fadzil dan sesiapa sahaja yang mengenali saya. Selamat berpuasa saya ucapkan..Semoga puasa tahun ini menjadi puasa yang penuh kenikmatan dan keberkatan kepada kita semua..

Puasa tahun ni sangat istimewa bagi saya, sebab puasa tahun ni adalah puasa terakhir saya bergelar 'cik'..heheheh..tahun depan dah berpuasa dgn suami tercinta Insya Allah..Korang doakanlah moga2 xde aral melintang.. Nak bina masjid ni bukan perkara senang, banyak cabaran.. Raya tahun ni meriahlah sebab sume adik beradik saya akan berkumpul di rumah mak di Terengganu.. Tahun lepas dah beraya di rumah suami/isteri masing2, tahun ni beraya kat teratak bonda tercinta lah pulak..Bestnyerr...Sbb tu raya tahun ni sangat istimewa... Dan raya tahun ni adalah projek2 khas saya ngan Fadzil, sbb kitorg dah rancang nak buat kuih raya, dah ada oven tu Faber tu oklah..besar plak oven tuh, 3.2 liter..

Untuk raya tahun depan, saya mengharap ciuman di pipi kiri dan kanan di pagi raya dari suami tercinta..Tu je..Xnak apa2 dah..tapi kalau pakej sekali ngan duit raya ok jgak..ekekekeke..

Akhir kata, selamat bersahur, selamat menahan diri dari perkara2 membatalkan puasa, selamat berbuka dan selamat berterawikh...

Psst: kalau korang perasan, post kali ni 100% Bahasa Melayu..susah jugak nak taip ni..

I hate you stupid-malay-people...

Let me tell u something bro..THIS IS MY BLOG...Are u stalking me?hahaha..Kelakarla u nih..Everyday u must be reading my blog kan? this is my blog, and u are messing with the blog's owner... WTH??you are talking to the landlord lar..kenapalah dalam dunia nih msti ada orang2 macam ni ha.. This blog is dedicated to AZZATIE INTAN SURAYA la..not to u chump!!

Esoteric yet brusque..that is what I wish to achieved in this blog. Not wanting to make a fuss over small things to people around me , not wanting to be a negative person, not wanting to hurt anybody...I just wish my epoch will be full with smiley faces. Yes, I need to write. I need to express my feelings and do not wish to box it all inside.
For those around me, this blog means nothing except as the stage , the ways, the medium for me to let it out so that my brain will start to drain itself from suffocating or drown to death by overwhelmed curiousity, worries and thinking.
 
Salam....
 
Psst: That is why kalau I pergi shopping complex, I lebih selesa kalau dikerumuni Chinese people and not Malays..why? because most Malays don't do shooping, but they do eyeing on other's shopping stuff..Stupid!!

A day to review...our courting/my mission?

Look at the pita pita sticker at the right gadget bar..Our relationship has gone up to 3 years..Terrific huh? I guess this is the first and last relationship I've ever been and for him? No clues..as I am trying to polish back all the things that made him fall in love to me 3 years ago. Fighting? Of course we did fight. We did fight anyway, in a way you won't think of as most people around me will think that our relationship will go down the drain..What we have achieved for all these years? Extra salt, extra ice-cream, extra carbonate, and extra lovey dovey kot..ekekeke..But, on our anniversary, what exactly we've done on our anniversary? I dont remember actually our actual first date..Hahahha..As at the first time I met him at bulan puasa 2007 as abang angkat...hahaha..Kang sekarang dah terangkat..Actually I have no feeling at all when the first time our eyes meet up at Lake Garden, cuma a bit pissed off when he pegang bahu sayer masa nak lintas jalan pergi bazar Kg Baru, I was like 'eh mamat nih..suker suker je pgg aku'. But now, the more I look at him, the more I am in love with him. I am truly enamored of him? Why? Nobody gets the special/soft threats as I get for so many years from him. Well talking about mistake, everyone makes mistake. Well there is a time where everyday I try to play another game just to convice myself, but my heart can't take it, I try to find another boy but my heart can't face it.. I should have never set my heart free..Tapi ada hikmah setiap benda yang terjadi dalam hidup kita nih.. but the I stall, try to look him at a positive ways.. Then, we are still sitting under our flowering tree..and this time, the tree is blossoming.. In my heart I still believe we wre meant to be together..

Now, dah sampai bulan August, well I can say that most of my plan/new year wish did come true and ada jugaklah yang harapan tinggal kenangan...But, I have extra goals to be added in the list..Let's review them:

 A Nokia 63, equipped with external Bluetooth

     ~ dah dapat dah..one more thing about me, I x pernah kekal selama setahun dengan satu phone.. xpernah satu pun..now I went crazy over Android OS Phone (Samsung Galaxy S or HTC Desire)

 Get myself a Christian Lacroix perfume spray
     ~ hahahah,..this one already got it..I love perfumes..Indeed, I have more than 4 perfumes in my possession...

 Obtain as much English novels as I manage to~ where is my 8th Habit honey?
     ~ sekarang my English enthusiasm getting lower due to busyness...will try to get it..

 Able to finish my Art of War, a very complicated book but I want to finish it and I will survive hey hey..
    ~ Finished it!! Complicated but worth the thrill tho...

 Gain a tremendous amount of self-esteem in this ‘English world’
    ~ in progress

 Get my own house costs above RM200,00 within 5 years
    ~ Next year punyer project with my other half...

 Get blessed with exceptional shrewdness within 3 years
     ~ After I got my degree, nothing to be fear anymore in

 Able to speak and write ADVANCED ENGLISH within 3 years
     ~ still pushing my tongue to speak English daily

 Betroth to a lovely and caring person namely my other half
    ~ No bells ringing..yang ni harapan tinggal kenangan

 Get myself into UiTM Shah Alam and pursue my degree in Property Management
    ~ End of this year or awal tahun depan I will pursue my degree in Property Mgt at UTM International Campus
Few goals to be added:

• Nak kumpul duit untuk mak abah pegi Mekah (my internal goal)
• Kahwin tahun depan (gatainya....)
• Kuar kete sendiri tahun depan
• Kurangkan shopping craze punyer habit dalam diri ni..yang ni sayer punyer financial controller dah ajar cara nak membeli dan menyimpan secara berhemah... let me ask u somethingla.. DO YOU SAVE OR SPEND MONEY DURING A SALE? betul sayang, orang yang pergi shopping tu macam hilang pedoman jer..ekekekeke

Activities on Saturday and Sunday

What exactly we've done for our weekend..Not much kot..U all can read this, or can proceed to the other post or the other blog..ekekekeke...On Saturday, not much as my other half is working 8 to 4 pace that day, and me??I'm all alone at my house doing that and that and that..Talking to our anak2 fishies and tgk tv and basuh baju, kemas tu, kemas ni..Sampailah my other asked me out for a concert at BB..

I'm not the concert-crazy-type girl tapi boleh la kalau ada concert free kan, pegi je la..Then, we actually bought 4 F&N drinks and got 2 smiley t-shirts..hahaha..Then tgk la konsert bingit tuh..I can say that most foreigners ~ Indo, Bangla, Filipina & outsiders are more having fun that our Malaysian people actually.. U can actually saw them dance crazily on our mother land..fcuk!! Pastu adalah plak budak2 pompuan Melayu nih yang ntah la nak cakap macam maner..Maybe I came from Terengganu, a very peaceful and I can say quiete bersopan-santun punyer negeri, so jauh beza dari budaya teenagers from KL nih...Nak cakap cantik tu xdela tapi xyah la nak tunjuk2 body tuh..X yahla nak hidup budaya Barat, BF u maybe nampak u cantik tapi orang lain sekeliling u maybe akan kutuk u punyer pemakaian tu..But, sekarang ni kalau I balik ke Terengganu pun dah ramai dah budak2 pompuan yg xpkai tudung, kuar pakai tube je, pkai sluar pendek, I was like, 'hey girls! U tak malu ke mintak izin nak kuar ngan mak bapak u dgn pakaian macam tuh!!' Kat konsert tu rmai gak duk menarik berpelukan ngan pakwes masing-masing..My other half dah start mengantuk dah dgn konsert tuh..Then, Bittersweet perform, barulah I berminat sket nak dengar..But my other half dah pndang ke lain dah..Ni lah kitorg, we dont actually went crazy over lagu2 Malaysia ni..Bukan xnak support keluaran Malaysia or artis Malaysia, tapi kitorg x suke artis2 sekarang yang lebih banyak tiru artis luar..Daripada korang duk puja artis yang meniru artis luar, baik korang puja artis luar yang dia tiru tu ja..Betul x? So basically I lebih suka band2/airtis luar ~ Blue, N'sync, BSB, BEP, Outkast, Britney, J.lo, Chris Brown, and more..They all are on top and on lock yaar..

Then, tibalah time Hujan buat persembahan..Now I know kenapa teenagers kat Malaysia gilakan hujan..Sbb Hujan ni slalu gak buat konsert2 free serata kl..dengan lagu yang sama berulang kali, n orang yang sama menontonnya (sayer and my other half cthnya)...Sbb tulah diorg suka band ni kot..

Then, habis je konsert tu, we went to Chow Kit to do midnight shopping..Hari tuh, I told my other half yang I teringin nak makan ikan pekasam, pernah makan sekali je few months ago, tu pun just rasa, tapi tetiba plak gatai tekak ni nk makan lagi..So, my other half decided to make ikan pekasam for me..Tu lah buah hati I, suka buat apa yang I nak dgn effort dia sendiri..Plus, dia cakap esok dia nak masak, kerabu pucuk paku + udang...hehehe..Then, I membontoti dia je la..Beli udang, beli pucuk paku, beli buah avokado, mangga, longan, pastu shopping n shopping n shopping..pastu balik..Then  dia buat buatkan jus avokado untuk I, oklah pada mulanya I boleh telan, but after that I dah mula rasa lain macam dah.. I nih xleh minum susu (teruk teruk)..xtau la kenapa, tapi kalau minum msti muntah (paling sikit), paling teruk sakit perut dua tiga hari..

Then esoknya tiba (Sunday), xde bende sangat pun..cuma my other half dropped me kat KLCC jap, utk beli tiket yang x wujud lagi..Well, dia dari berbulan sebelum ni nak sangat tgk The Expandables, and I nak sangat tunaikan hajat dia..rupa2nya The Expandables kuar panggung 13 Ogos 2010..Hampehh betul..X kesampaian, then kitorang pegilah pasar Jalan Semarak saner..Ni lagi satu hobby kitorg sekarang ni..iaitu MENCARI PASAR MALAM...hahaha..Actually bnde ni start lepas I balik dari Johor..I mula rasa nak mencari pasar malam setiap hari..Then, I carilah..sbb apa? saje..xde keje..but now I mencari pasar malam ngan dia, so berkepit lah kat pasar malam tu ngan dia..

So, nilah pasar malam yang kitorg sempat terjah/jumpa:

• Sabtu - Jalan Tunku Abdul Rahman/Kg Baru
• Ahad - Jalan Semarak/Taman Kosas Ampang
• Isnin - x dapat dikesan lagi
• Selasa - Pandan Jaya/Cheras Perdana
• Rabu - Pandan Mewah (ni 1st timepegi minggu lepas, Rina bagi direction x betul)
• Khamis - x dapat dikesan lagi
• Jumaat - dalam proses mencari, tapi dgr citer kat area OKR tu ada hari Jumaat...

An Autumn Honeymoon...

Well u heard me..We are going to Korea!!! Yayyy!! X sabar nak tunggu bulan 6 tahun depan..Sekarang ni pun tgh saving la nih nak buat kenduri.. Dan majlisnyer akan bertemakan Victorian English Garden.. Nak tahu macam mner? Semua bnde yang terlibat ~ doorgift, wedding invitation, banting, wedding deco, hantaran, solemnization sumenya bertemakan warna-warna English Vantage (pastel colour~ Soft blue, soft pink, lilac and pearl white)..So, the wedding will be soft-look in everyone's eyes la..hehehehe..I like those colours. And of course my hantaran will be the hantaran never seen before..Ha, korang x tahu, the idea of the hantaran decoration was imported from English Vantage.. Kita kahwin sekali je kan sume hidup..Buat yang the best yang kita mampu la kan..My sister asked my why I should do sampai nak kne pkai banting apa sume..

Then I said to her, I've planned few events before which involved puluhan ribu Ringgit Malaysia and now u are asking me how am I  going to conduct/direct/plan my own wedding? Tambah plak ngan honeymoon kat oversea, x banyak pakai duit ker..Well, let me tell u something, u can actually have a very simple yet grand wedding by thinking more than spending.. I have a friend yang baru je bertunang and she spend almost 4k for her engagement..I said what the hell you bought/spend for him? Well, I can say that kitorg ni bukannya banyak duit sangat nak buat grand wedding, but I can say that my wedding will be the sweetest memory ever for us. I know some places which actually can make my dream comes true~to have a garden wedding. Plus, dengan sponsor2 from family members lagi nnti.. Honeymoon kat oversea xde masalah kalau u tahu cara nak spend your money wisely..From the ticketing sampailah ke hotel reservation, kalau u all tahu tempat and cara and tahu nak gunakan teknologi + otak= dapatlah a perfect honeymoon but still in budget..

Zoo Korea >>

So, last night my other half said Bali panas lah, jom pegi Korea, I think he already read this blog kot..Sbb I tak pernah bukak mulut pasal Korea kat dia.. Takpelah, I love U sayang.. Then, tibalah masa nak googling pasal Seoul Korea nih.. Banyak tempat menarik..Tambah plak bulan 6 tahun depan adalah time Autumn, musim luruh..wah!! An Autumn Honeymoon..Sekarang nih mmg dah tak fikir nak honeymoon dalam Malaysia sbb next week nak keKangar, lepas raya ke Johor, then ke Gua Musang, Kelantan then tahun depan ke Langkawi, then ke Johor lagi, then bulan tiga ke Kota Kinabalu..dah pusing satu Malaysia sebelum honeymoon pun..so, xnak fikir pasal honeymoon kat Malaysia..

I want something yang exotic, yang thrilller, yang mencabar...barulah survive namanya..And I know some places yang cantik kat Seoul cthnya Pulau Cheju (dalam citer Autumn in My heart), Pusan City, Everlands Seoul and more..

So, xsabar rasanya nak ke sana...berdua je pulak tuh..

Psssttt: he said he cant wait to kiss me under the sakura tree there.... Me too...

Bali vs The Winter-Around-The-Corner-Seoul Korea

Yesterday my mum asked me where would we go for the honeymoon, malu bila mak sendiri tnya macam tuh...hehehe..then I said Bali is included in our budget. Mym mum said, 'dah nak kawin dah anak mak ni...sekejap je dah besar...'

I remember back on many many years ago, I was the one considered as troublesome to my parents..Dari kisah masa2 baby dlu, I was sicked because of my old name ~ Siti Nur Aisyah didnt suit me at all (karut nih)...No wonder my other half terpinga-pinga bila my uncle call me Aisyah..Most of my family members still use that name to call me.. But I prefer they call my real name..Masa I baby dulu I selalu sakit (ni apa yang my mum cerita lah), then my dad changed my name to Azzatie Intan Suraya (yang I tahu, Azzatie means kekuatan)wahhhh...class gitu!! There's something I wanna tell u all pasal my name ni..Adalah jugak insan2 kat dalam dunia ni x percaya yang Azzatie Intan Suraya is my name..hahaha kelakar kan..diorang siap tnya 'tu nama u yang sebenar ke?' I balas, 'Yelah, xkan nak tgk IC kot', then dia cakap 'show me ur IC', then I showed my IC, then they darn shocked, I tnya ' tak pernah lak ada yang tak percaya nama tu nama I'..Diorg cakap, 'sedap sangat nama tu', then I was like >geeeee< (big grin)..

Nak cakap pasal Bali tapi jauh dah melencong nih, what can I do, I love blogging...Talking about Bali, my plan sebenarnya nak pegi Jakarta, as most of my collegues cakap Jakarta best, especially Tanah Abang, a paradise for shopping manias..hahahah...Then my other cakap jom pegi Bali, then I cakap ok..pegi Bali..

As I told my mum about Bali, she asked me why we need go oversea sdgkan byk lagi tmpt kat Malaysia ni..Then I replied to her, 'my work rite now needs me to travel all over the Malaysia', so xyahlah honeymoon kat Malaysia as I outstation pun dah seluruh Malaysia..Then dia cakap oklah terpulang pada korang la..Then suddenly my sister popped out from nowhere asked me whether she can come along to..I ketawa je bila dia tnya macam tu..Then my sister kat johor pun ada bagi ceramah rumah tangga sket..Tu la, ni la..tu nak kne jaga, ni nak kne jaga...tu nak kne buat, ni nak kne buat..Hanya I sahaja yang tahu apa yang my other half nak, cara hidup dia, apa makanan yang dia blh makan x blh makan, hanya I yang tahu tabiat hidup dia..The same goes to him..Only he knows me..Well, u dont expect ur parents know everything pasal u kan..There must be some teenage stuff or some secrecy yang u je yang tahu kan kan kan??

Then hari tu ada lah sket selisih faham, sikit je, yang start adalah Azzatie Intan Suraya..maybe dah lama sangat hidup in peace pastu buang tebiat nak cari gaduh..hehehehe..then dia pun cakap la for few days dia mencari flight to be booked for our honeymoon tapi xada lagi..Airasa xkuarkan lagi jadual flight untuk Jun next year..Then dia bagtau la yang he will do something to get the honeymoon package at Melia Bali..~Touching~..I said to myself, Zet u ni bodohla pi cari pasal ngan dia..Then I mintak maaf..I tahu and boleh nampak sekarang betapa jauh bezanya dia sekarang dgn dia yang dulu..

But, suddenly I terfikir dulu my cita2 is nak pijakkan kaki ke Seoul, especially for honeymoon..tgklah, we'll see how's the flow..Kalau ada backup plan ke..hehehe, but 1st choice is Bali, then second one is Seoul..tmbahan plak time tu nak masuk winter..lepas Spring...bestnyer...

This is for my other half:

Pa, Air Asia will fly to Seoul starting this November..but mana2 pun x kisah as long as I'm with u...

It's absolutely not as u said yar....

I remember few unpleasant circumstances happened in my life in old times and recently of course...Then I tried to flash back all my readings... BEING HAPPY! by Steve Brown... A very cute and tiny book imbued with threats and tricks to make urself happy about urself and others arround you...Yup! That book makes me smile a lot actually..Nasib baik tinggal buku tu kat office..So, in order to get over what happened last nite between me and my toher half, I took half an hour to belek that book one more time..

Basically, my problem is easy..and I am fully aware what the fish my problem is all about...I am scared to my own reflection..Yup, I'm scared of my own memories...Bayangkan I ada 100 memori, tapi 3 of them tu memori yang menghancurkan hati sayer, sedangkan sayer ada lagi 97 sweet memories...although I tried hard to overcome that 3 sad memories, tapi setiap kali I terbayang 97 kenangan manis tu, semua kenangan2 tu akan memuju ke 3 kenangan pahit tu..Tu teorinya lah...That is why sayer suruh dia buat macam2...tuk create new memories..basically, dia buat lbh dari yang sayer mintak..Actually sayer tak mintak pun, but sayer cuma nak my other half tahu apa yang saya impikan dalam hidup sayer yang baru ni..

Then, I started to smile bila baca kisah2 dalam buku ni...Basically kalau u all baca a bit of the kisah2 dalam buku ni, u all akan tahu mcm mner nak appreciate urself and other people around u..That's y when my fren kat UTM dlu tnya, npe u suka baca English book, x susah ke faham perkataan dia..Then I said to her, my first English book was at 5.. Umur 5 tahun sayer hafal satu buku penuh dah bercerita depan orang... I took months to understand..But I only understand the book masa I bercerita pada orang..Story-telling..Masa tu baru sayer faham kandungan buku "Stupid Donkey" tu..Pada umur 5 tahun sayer mula baca buku English.. Sampai skrg, and u might dont want to know how my vocab and pronounciation is..I bersyukur sbb Tuhan nak bukakan hati sayer pada umur 5 tahun to learn English...

Talking about story yang sayer nak kongsi ngan u all ni, citernyer pasal kura2 (dont appreciate apa yg u ada and put high expectations orang lain uth buat something to u), pasal katak (yang berfikiran negatif terhadap apa yg orang lain fikir ttg dia), dan pasal perempuan cantik (yang cemburukan orang sampai berdendam)...

The Turtles

A turtle family decided to go on a picnic. The turtles, being naturally slow about things, took seven years to prepare for their outing. Finally the turtle family left home looking for a suitable place. During the second year of their journey they found a place ideal for them at last!

For about six months they cleaned the area, unpacked the picnic basket, and completed the arrangements. Then they discovered they had forgotten the salt. A picnic without salt would be a disaster, they all agreed. After a lengthy discussion, the youngest turtle was chosen to retrieve the salt from home. Although he was the fastest of the slow moving turtles, the little turtle whined, cried, and wobbled in his shell. He agreed to go on one condition: that no one would eat until he returned. The family consented and the little turtle left.

Three years passed and the little turtle had not returned. Five years...six years... then on the seventh year of his absence, the oldest turtle could no longer contain his hunger. He announced that he was going to eat and begun to unwrap a sandwich. At that point the little turtle suddenly popped out from behind a tree shouting, 'See! I knew you wouldn't wait. Now I am not going to go get the salt.'

[Some of us waste our time waiting for people to live up to our expectations. We are so concerned about what others are doing that we do not do anything ourselves.]
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The Frogs

A farmer came into town and asked the owner of a restaurant if he could use a million frog legs. The restaurant owner was shocked and asked the man where he could get so many frog legs! The farmer replied, 'There is a pond near my house that is full of frogs - millions of them. They all croak all night long and they are about to make me crazy!' So the restaurant owner and the farmer made an agreement that the farmer would deliver frogs to the restaurant, five hundred at a time for the next several weeks.

The first week, the farmer returned to the restaurant looking rather sheepish, with two scrawny little frogs. The restaurant owner said, 'Well.... where are all the frogs?' The farmer said, 'I was mistaken. There were only these two frogs in the pond. But they sure were making a lot of noise!'

[ Next time you hear somebody criticizing or making fun of you, remember, it's probably just a couple of noisy frogs. Also remember that problems always seem bigger in the dark. Have you ever laid in your bed at night worrying about things which seem almost overwhelming like a million frogs croaking? Chances are pretty good that when the morning comes, and you take a closer look, you'll wonder what all the fuss was about.]
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The Pretty Lady

Once upon a time a big monk and a little monk were traveling together. They came to the bank of a river and found the bridge was damaged. They had to wade across the river. There was a pretty lady who was stuck at the damaged bridge and couldn't cross the river.

The big monk offered to carry her across the river on his back. The lady accepted. The little monk was shocked by the move of the big monk. 'How can big brother carry a lady when we are supposed to avoid all intimacy with females?' thought the little monk. But he kept quiet... The big monk carried the lady across the river and the small monk followed unhappily. When they crossed the river, the big monk let the lady down and they parted ways with her. All along the way for several miles, the little monk was very unhappy with the act of the big monk. He was making up all kinds of accusations about big monk in his head. This got him madder and madder. But he still kept quiet.. And the big monk had no inclination to explain his situation.

Finally, at a rest point many hours later, the little monk could not stand it any further, he burst out angrily at the big monk. 'How can you claim yourself a devout monk, when you seize the first opportunity to touch a female, especially when she is very pretty? All your teachings to me make you a big hypocrite The big monk looked surprised and said, 'I had put down the pretty lady at the river bank many hours ago, how come you are still carrying her along?'

[This very old Chinese Zen story reflects the thinking of many people today. We encounter many unpleasant things in our life, they irritate us and they make us angry. Sometimes, they cause us a lot of hurt, sometimes they cause us to be bitter or jealous .. But like the little monk, we are not willing to let them go away. We keep on carrying the baggage of the 'pretty lady' with us.

We let them keep on coming back to hurt us, make us angry, make us bitter and cause us a lot of agony.
Why? Simply because we are not willing to put down or let go of the baggage of the 'pretty lady'.
We should let go of the pretty lady immediately after crossing the river.
This will immediately remove all our agonies. There is no need to be further hurt by the unpleasant event after it is over

Betul x stories nih? Berlaku dalam hidup u all kan? So, just be happy..You can't feel good about what u have because u always grizzle about your life...I dont understand why English can understand me so darn well...Hahahaha...See you...