I am enamored of him??Well he?

Well you heard me...sometimes I do think that I ni kejam sangat recently but what can I possibly say after musibah ni melanda, kena pada batang hidung I sendiri...

Too many days with tears & sadness, rasa nak bunuh diri, rasa nak terjun laut, rasa nak bunuh orang sume adalah pendek kata...But what I can say right now about myself is I'm clueless about what the hell is happening to me. He is in front of me, but I cant give him the love, touch, cares, all the thing he needs from me...I cant give him that.. Talking about another person in my life..Few days ago actually I've met someone from Singapore masa larikan diri ke Johor. What happened then? Lots of thing yang berlaku tapi I x rasa apa-apa. We went for puluhan moives but I cant actually feel the happiness. I'm lost in my own world..Something yang x pernah berlaku dalam hidup I. I lost my first love, first man yang datang dalam hidup I, I lost my first heart..I lost everything...

I am fully aware about my changes rite now but I cant do anything to fix it. My heart is gone..X kisah brape banyak durian I telan masa kat dusun nagn my bro & my sis dulu, tapi x blh lari dari air mata I sendiri...Hilang je dari pndangan my bro, I akan menangis, even dalam toilet pun I blh menangis, my tears now is so darn fragile..Rapuh sangat2, mudah sgt2 untuk jatuh ke bumi and sadly no one can do anything to patch it up..

Betul cakap orang, kehilangan cinta pertama sangat manyakitkan. Even I sendiri malu sebagai perempuan sbb I've tried so damn hard utk pertahankan hubungan itu. I've tried to polish up apa yg membuatkan dia jatuh cinta pada I three years ago. I've tried to regain the fire in this relationship. I've tried harder and harder..Tapi I sendiri jatuh tersungkur and I sendiri xtau bila I blh bangkit. I dah kehilangan satu2 nya lelaki yang I dh bersumpah pada diri I sendiri hanya dia satu-satunya lelaki dalam hidup I. I dah kehialangan hati dan perasaan untuk merasai erti cinta buat kali kedua.. In fact, I dh lukakan perasaan Joe. I tahu, tapi I x mampu buat apa2. dia sangat2 terluka & I rasa sgt berdosa..But, I cant have two guys in my, I xblh bg kasih syg pada dua org lelaki sekaligus, I'm not that kind of bitch yang sggup menduakan org yang dicintai walaupun that guy pernah buat macam tu. I dididik untuk bagi sepenuh keihklasan, cinta, kasih sayang hanya pada seorang lelaki yang bakal bergelar suami & ayah pada anak2 I. I xpernah bercinta sebelum I keluar dari high school..I xpernah tahu apa peraturan bercinta sblum ni, I xpernah tahu dalam bercinta kita blh ada dua or tiga orang di belakang orang yang kita sayang..I xpernah tahu semua tu..The obnly thing I know when I fall in love for the first time ever in my life is, I will curahkan kasih I sepenuh hati, I will take care of him without compromising, I will get him all the support he needs from me, I'll be there whenever he wants me to, and I'll be faithful to him eventhough there's someone better might promote himself in front of me.For me, just him.

I balik ke KL becoz my train of thought is imbued with memories of my first love.. Now he is still next to me, hoping I boleh terima dia, tapi I sendiri x tahu jawapannya. I sendiri tercari-cari where the hell my heart went missing. I sendiri tertanya-tnya whether I blh jatuh cinta skali lagi pada lelaki yang sama I jatuh cinta 3 tahun dlu...I'm clueless actually..

I x kisah apa dia nak buat kat I to get me back, cari I sampai ke Johor, hug me, kiss me, or even melutut to me sekalipun tapi I nak mintak maaf pada dia sbb I tak blh bagi jawapan tu sekarang.

Although I can see dia berubah banyak sangat, kasih syg dia, layanan dia, the way he hugs me, the way he kisses me, the way he tells me how much he loves me, I know he wanted to change but I couldnt help myself skrg ni. So I decided to build a new life, a new me, incase kalau I jatuh cinta sekali lagi pada dia, syukur I panjatkan pada Allah kerana kembalikan hati I yang dh remuk ni...

But one thing I'm sure about myself rite now, I'll do whatever I want whenever I want. Sama ada dengan dia or all by myself.. so kepada kengkawan semua yang tgh bercinta, simpan a little bit of the love for the sake of urself, sbb once u jatuh tersungkur, parahnya luka tu hanya Allah saje yang tahu...

Salam....

I want one!!! IPad from Apple

As I am writing this post...I'm striving to get a new Ipad from Apple, as Dell x keluarkan lagi Ipad.. My sis from Jb wants to buy my lappy..only RM1700 ++, i bought that for RM2800. OMG, why I couldn't just wait for Ipad to be released and not buy my lappy. Hrrrmmm...no comment. But, I am really craving for that Ipad. Either I choose mt lappy Dell or get a new Ipad. I think I'll go for that Ipad kot.. But, havent speak on this to my other half yet. Should I say my other half, as we already break off and I dont know the where hell my heart gone...Well yar, I habiskan almost RM500 trying to get a smile in my face back.. Doing that, and that, and that..But nop. I'm heartless now. As now, I dont know the real status of Azzatie Intan Suraya. Whether in a relationship, or about to get married with someone who did broke my heart heart smpai berkecai, or single. Entahla, still looking for my heart actually..

But one thing I am sure about the new me rite now is I'll do whatever I want to do, with whoever I want to do. Yup, As today, Despicable Me akan kuar panggung, try to catch a train to watch it tonite whether with him or me alone.. Entahla, I'm clueless actually when talking about my heart.

Well guys, hope u understand that I am a working girl who lost my heart, already got a new pet (Pingi), yup I got a new pet last nite and striving my very hard to get a new IPad and a new Lollipop...My sister nak sume brg2 I, teruk betul dia ni, lappy pun nak, my E63 pun dia nak..tp xpelah, I mmg plan nak jual my phone ni, as I want a Lollipop form LG. So Girlish.

Here's some info for the new Ipad from Apple. Cool stuff huh!!!

Apple iPad Price In Malaysia

The highly anticipated electronic device – iPad has just been announced by Steve Jobs in Apple Media Event. Everyone has been talking about how good the device was before it released & I am now here to reveal it for ya’ all.



Features :

* Processor: 1GHz Apple A4

* Operating System: iPhone OS 3.2

* Storage: 16GB, 32GB or 64GB flash drive

* Size: 9.56 (H) x 7.47 (W) x 0.5 (D) inch

* Weight: 1.5 pounds (680 gram) for iPad WiFi, 1.6 pounds (730 gram) for iPad 3G

* Display: 1024×768 pixels

* Wireless connection: WiFi, Bluetooth, 3G (Additional payment needed)

* Battery: up to 10 hours of web surfing, video watching, music playback

* Input/Output: Dock connector, 3.5mm headphone jack, build-in speaker, microphone, SIM tray (iPad 3G only)





Homepage looks slick with iPhone app launcher but with Mac OSX dock. Size of keyboard has been increased, we can see Jobs is typing on the keyboard using fingers instead thumbs.



Fear not if you own an iPhone but am afraid to pay for the same apps again on iPad, you can simply sync it & your iPad will get the same apps as those on your iPhone. All apps will be resized automatically to fit your screen.



Games are running smoothly & ‘presumably HD’ as described by Gizmodo as Need For Speed & NOVA were demonstrated during the event, but for me the games look just the same as on iPhone, so it’s quite disappointing for a heavy gamer like me.



How About Apple iPad Price In Malaysia?

The iPad ships worldwide in 60 days, but only in Wi-Fi versions. The 3G version will be another 30 days after that. Here are the prices:



Without 3G:



• $499: 16GB (RM1714)

• $599: 32GB (RM2057)

• $699: 64GB (RM2400)



With 3G:



• $629: 16GB (RM2160)

• $729: 32GB (RM2500)

• $829: 64GB (RM2848)



Apple will ship all the iPads in 60 days—the end of March—to America, and just the Wi-Fi models internationally. It’ll be another 30 days beyond that for 3G models to be available outside our shores; Apple says they’re still working on carrier deals.

I WANT ONE!!!!

iPad at a glance. Visit the iPad site

Ouucchhh...I want it...

The best way to experience the web, email, photos, and video.

Page through websites, write an email, flick through photos, or watch a movie with just the touch of a finger.


A design that’s thin, light, and brilliant.

iPad has a 9.7-inch, high-resolution LED-backlit IPS display and incredible Multi-Touch capability. Yet it’s thin and light enough to take anywhere.


Thousands of apps made just for iPad. With more coming every day.

Right now you can discover over a thousand apps on the App Store made just for iPad — with more coming every day. And if that’s not enough, you can also run almost 200,000 iPhone apps.3

Introducing iBooks. A new way to read and buy books.

Download the free iBooks app from the App Store. More than a great ebook reader, it’s also an amazing place to browse and shop for books.4


OMG!!!!

My other half versus inner me

OMG OMG!! I just can't get over my other half. Miss him a lot tapi tak mahu cakap kat dia sbbnyer sekarang dalam proses take it easy.. I want to regain the fire in this relationship. I am thinking a lot about him recently. We did fight...over his silence...Aarrgghhh!!!Geramnya kenapa lelaki suka cakap 'takde apa'...Well guys, let me tell u something ok..girls hate when u say that. U left them hanging clueless exactly!!

So, tu lah yang terjadi. That time I was so damn pissed off, sedih kecewa, heart-broken when he just take me for granted only..I even told my mum, dgn sape lagi I nak luahkan..Menangis dengan my mum. even for the whole I menangis kat office when thinking of our relationship, risau kak Mizah dibuatnya...It's getting worse day by day. So, I said to myself, "Zet, kalau u sayangkan hubungan ni, u better stand up for u and for him, do something". And that night I wrote him a letter, luahkan segala-galanya dalam surat tu...I hope he can understand me. That's all. Then, surprisingly, he asked me for a dinner, katanya, "dah lama x bawak my wifey ni pegi makan malam". Sedar pun, hello!!! u abandoned me mister. then malam tu kita makan malam and I rasa dia cuma penat, no time for myself...It's alright sayang, I understand...

Cuma satu je yang I concern, about our engagement. Ntahla, no comment...few my frens did asked me what happened?xde invitation pun. some of the did mengkritik I sbb my unsuccessful engagement tu....I was like, kenapalah diorg ni nak tanya soalan mcm tu..Kalau your engagement was canceled, then I ask u the exact question, offended x? Tepuk dada tanya selerala bro.

But still, no reaction from him..Dia cakap nak bertunang selepas raya..Tgkla macam mana as my mum made me promised her that I xkan bangkitkan lagi hal pertunangan tu kecuali dia buka mulut. Ok, mum. I will never bangkitkan hal ni lagi. Berserah jela, kalau dia betul2 ikhlas, then he'll know what to do..I'll always be here waiting for him. Kadang2 I kesiankan diri I sendiri, waiting so long to get a 'fiancee' titlle. My mum je yang faham. Hari2 I call my mum and she'll ask me whether I'm alright or not. Even dia cakap suruh berhenti kerja, balik kampung, be part of the family again, my dad akan tanggung. I said, my rezeki kat sini, nak cuba dulu for few years, kalau tak boleh nak go on, then I akan balik ke Terengganu try kerja kat sana. sbb I sayangkan my mum. She knows what the best for me. Indeed, I am crying rite now when posting this blog.

Rendezvous at Langkawi

I've been planning this for months. a perfect family vacation, together with my other half. LANGKAWI, yup, there it is..

Actually this plan emerge when we are celebrating his befday at Genting Highlands. Only both of us, berkepit along the way from KL until SkyWay Genting. And sejuk sangat kat sana, he hugged me from the back, a kiss planted on my cheek. ~~Blushing~~ and another one on the other cheek, now u tell me how I'm not in lov with him. We did actually had a very romantic vacation, after ponteng kerja sehari. My boss called me pagi tu, tnya pegi mner, and I was like "salam bos, emergency leave"...

We have fun playing all the games provided there samapai my other half pening...hahaah, then i went to play all by myself, dia sibuk duk amik gambar. Then, he bought me a chocolate from Beryl's, well he knows I'm enthusiast with chocolate and of course I am enamored of him. Then, we went makan2 kat Resort World, OMG KFC dia twice harga dari KFC KL. My other half said that we should open a kedai mamak kat sini, boleh jadi restoran 5 star...hahaha...With all the giggling and walking, we went back to KL at night. Takkan la nak tidur sana, nak mampos.

Then, I belanja my other half makan kat Bangsar, celebrating his birthday, not much I can do for him, as ho done a lot for me, for my studies, and for our future. Indeed, I think my other half sendiri x sabar nak tunggu my birthday as I always got my birthday present earlier than the respective that. Hahah, he loves me. Even my 20th befday, malam tu I don't really know yang dia dah sorokkan jam tu in my closet for one month without me noticing it. Macam mana dia buat tu. Just balut balut dengan my baju macam a regular lipatan in my closet. Than on 18th March baru dia cakap suruh check my closet kat bahagian belakang, I was so damn shocked. I was craving for that watch and he bought me one.

A bit stray from our topic, that nite masa tgh makan2, I called my mum then he talked to my mum. Suddenly he asked my mum whether she wants to go for a vacation with us? Kenapa plak my other half offer my mum pegi vacation. then tetiba kuarlah perkataan Langkawi. Of course la my mum nak pegi, bukan setakat my mum, my adik2 pun nak pegi.. So, we booked 6 flight tickets pegi balik ke Langkawi, nak cari suitable time mmg susah...then dapatlah tarikh yang sesuai, I pun xde outstation, dia pun x bz...

Thanks to him for the lovely invitation...Nanti dah pegi Langkawi I'll snap picz banyak2...

Kangar~ Me & Ayu? Perhaps...

Well, u heard me... when I told my sis Ayu that I'm going to Kangar on end of July, she was so darn excited to follow me..she said, "Along, aku naik bas pegi KL, then aku ikut pergi Kangar...Please, dlm banyak2 negeri kat Malaysia ni, aku x pernah jejak Kangar, & sabah Sarawak of course. Please, aku teman & aku janji x ganggu Along buat keje." She's so sweet when talking about jalan2 or makan2 or shopping2...

My only little sister, we used to argue with each other over sillliest things on earth and now we both are more matured than we are yesterday. On that day I called & tell her that I was not getting engaged with my other half, then she said, what the hell la tunggu lama2..And I also wondering why on earth la I wait so long to get married..Hahahaha...

But now, in the morning or in the evening, I will call her & talk to her...and of course talk to my mum also, I miss my mum..always belek-ing my lappy and stare at her face, then I saw myself. No wonder my dad used to said that me and my mum are look alike. Yeah, that's true, well, she's my mum.

Now, talking about Kangar, that say I went walking at Central Market and I saw a Tourism Booth and walked and walked to the booth and aha! I take the Perlis brochure. Need to study about Kangar a bit as I'm going there alone with my sister, not with my other half or my parents...Takut sesat plak karang without having smattering on Perlis. then I called my sister and told her that we are going to stay at Bukit Ayer Recreational Resort. A very cosy & comfy place, surrounded with greenery scenes, river flows, butterflies and I was like, I defenitely will love that place somehow. The rate is affordable as my company will tanggung semua hehehehe...So, I keluar duit belanja for us to makan2 n jalan2 je la..Hurrmmm, working & having fun at the same time, it sounds great to my ears.

Now, I'm planning and rearranging my schedule as I will be going to Johor Bahru once again and Gua Musang by September. And this time, I will go there with my whole family..hehehe..As I said before, my company will tanggung part of the expenses.

Me and my fren Rina planned to go for a little vacation at Pulau Besar, I found something more interesting than Pulau Besar Melaka to do snorkelling. Pantai Teluk Kemang, PD is one of the famous destination for relaxation and mind easing. Bananq Boat, Masak Lemak Cili Api, Daging Salai..wahhh I really wanted to go there one more time. I've been there before, a year ago with my frens from UTM. We went camping there for 3D2N, mandi manda kat pantai, barbeque and Banana Boat, jalan2 kat Pantai Teluk Kemang, pegang bontot kuda heheeh and more...I miss them and my old times so much..

So, next week, before leaving to Johor Bahru, I think we will proceed with Teluk Kemang for snorkelling trip. Before that, need to watch Toy Story 3 first....Wahh! Can't wait until next week.

~My good old times~

Hmm....i don't know how can I blogging anymore like I used to.. My life nowadays are more complicated than my life before.. somehow I miss my old good times, with my family, my siblings, my anak2 sedara yang so amiable especially Baby Ida, my frens Najmi, Azuan, Firdaus & Im, my roommates Fatihah, my classmates Yat, nora, Tikah, Kino...OMG!! I miss them so damn much...

Recently I rose up in the morning I can feel the very cold morning breeze, and I don't know why somehow I missed to taste the air before.. But now, I can get a peace of mine. Striving to pull my life together, try to achieve something impossible, try to imagine my life in the future time. Because the different between TRY and TRIUMPH is the little UMPH!! So, I need to keep up in my own life lane...

I travel a lot this time. From Southern Malaysia to East Coast and back to KL and the next week I have to travel again. Now, I realize I did handovered for 9 times and I never enjoy my handover. In the first week of July, I will travel to Johor Bahru, which I long to go to. Finally, I got the chance to go there. This time, I will finish my job together with my vacation. I wanna try something new in JB. Indeed, i'm  peering over Majlis Perbandaran JB to look for some interesting places..

Here's the result:

Hutan Bandar


Meliputi kawasan seluas 50 ekar yang terletak di pertemuan JalanTasek Utara dan Jalan Yahya Awal, Johor Bahru iaitu kira-kira 1.5 km dari pusat bandar raya. Atara komponen yang tedapat didalamnya termasuklah Laman Tembusu, Medan Selera, Laman Permainan Kanak-Kanak, Kawasan Tasik, dan Tapak Perkhemahan.
Taman Orkid Johor Bahru

Terletak di dalam kawasan Hutan Bandar ini telah dibuka kepada orang ramai pada pertengahan tahun 2003. Bertemakan "Pameran Ekologi Orkid", taman ini mempunyai kawasan seluas lebih kurang 10 ekar, mempunyai bangunan yang menggabungkan rekabentuk seni bina lestari yang berkonsepkan "mesra alam" dan "terbuka".
Laman Merdeka

Taman yang terletak di Tasek Utara iaitu kira-kira 3 km dari Pusat Bandaraya Johor Bahru ini mempunyai kawasan seluas 31 ekar yang merangkumi pembangunan Fasa 1 dan Fasa . Di sini pengunjung bukan sahaja dapat beriadah tetapi juga dapat mempelajari berhubung kemerdekaan melalui komponen pembangunan yang telah disediakan.
Taman Rekreasi Tasik Pandan

Laman Rekreasi ini terletak di Jalan Harmon, Taman Desa Harmon, daerah Johor Bahru berhampiran dengan Ponderosa Golf & Country Club. Laman Rekreasi ini merangkumi kawasan seluas 6.6 hektar (16.3 ekar) dan dilengkapi dengan sebuah tasik seluas 10 ekar yang terletak di tengah laman ini.

The only place I wanted to go is

Danga Bay
Semarak dengan aktiviti bertenaga dan penuh dengan kemeriahan yang tidak tertanding, Danga Bay menawarkan pengalaman unik yang mengesankan.

Dengan kawasan seluas 1800 ekar dan persisiran pantai sepanjang 25 km. Danga Bay adalah sebuah pembangunan bersepadu persisiran pantai yang menggabungkan pusat kewangan, komersial, hiburan, pelesiran dan pusat kegiatan mesra keluarga yang unggul di Johor. Ia adalah sebuah Bandar dalam Bandar dengan kemudahan infrastruktur bertaraf dunia.

Terletak hanya 5km dari Bandar Johor Bahru, Danga Bay telah menarik ramai warga tempatan dari seluruh Malaysia.

There u go, although JB is not really as hectic as KL, and plus I dont reallt mastering their roads and whatsoever, but I will try my best to ENJOY!!!

Hurmm...

I'm back with the bless..rasanyer dh 6 bulan x update..wahh..certainly being a busy bee kat sini..nntilah, update dari office je la lps ni..hehehe