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My Mr Right...

I can say that I found my Mr. Right about three years ago right here in this Metropolitan City...

Kenapa dia Mr. Right? Sebab pertama, dia adalah cinta pertama saya..Sebab kedua, saya mencintai dia sepenuh hati saya dari dulu smpai sekarang and Insya Allah akan kekal selama-lamanya...

Girls out there, let me tell u something..How young u are, but when u being touched by true love, u will by hook or by crook get ready to take your relationship to another level..Marriage..

Saya nak share dengan  u all apa perasaan saya terhadap Mr. Right saya ni.. Saya x pernah bercinta sebelum ni..Dia yang pertama hadir dalam hidup saya, and segala pantang larang dalam percintaan x pernah saya tahu..Pada mulanya, apabila dia memegang tangan saya dlm keretanya dan menyatakan bahawa dia sayangkan saya, I was like, biar betul dia ni..xkan baru knl dh jatuh sayang and vice-versa. Tetapi selepas itu saya tahu, apabila seorang lelaki benar2 jatuh cinta,  perubahan sikapnya mula kelihatan.. Hatinya yang dianggap keras (Mr.Right saya ni HOD kat tmpt dia keje and terkenal dgn kegarangannya...) selama ini, menjadi lembut seperti kapas. Bahkan dia sanggup berkorban dan melakukan apa shaja untuk saya, termasuk deliverkan makanan waktu malam (waktu saya belajar dulu). Sekeras mana pun hati lelakinya, dia pernah mengalirkan air mata (tu first time saya tgk dia menangis) semasa nak hantar saya naik bas balik kampung...Time tu kitorg singgah Titiwangsa jap..

Saya tahu dan sedar, sentiasa tahu apabila dia sentiasa bersungguh-sungguh mahu melakukan apa sahaja demi saya seikhlas hatinya...Saya makin jatuh cinta apabila dia buat macam tu.. Then, saya tanamkan dalam hati saya, ternyata saya tak silap pilih teman hidup!!

Dia juga sentiasa buat hati saya senang dan yaang membuatkan saya terharu, dia mula mahukan perhubungan yang serius, bila dia berbicara ttg mahu memperkenalkan saya dengan keluarganya..bercakap soal perkahwinan...Saya rasa bahagia..Dan perbuatannya itu makin membuatkan saya mencintainya...

Mmg x diakui dia kuat membebel..tapi jauh di sudut hatinya dia mahu MENGINGATI saya..dia mahu perhubungan kami berjalan lancar tanpa sebarang masalah dan saya menghargai setiap bebelannya walaupun telinga agak sakit...Dan setiap nasihatnya itu, membuatkan saya bertambah cintakannya...

Semakin lama perhubungan kami, timbul pula pelbagai kembimbangan dlm benak otak saya ni,  termasukla akan kehilangannya..Tu perkara yang paling saya takut... AKAN KEHILANGANYYA...saya tidak mampu untuk berdepan dengan fakta : saya kehilangan cinta pertama...Tidak mampu... Walaupun dia pernah melakukan kesilapan, saya tetap bangun berjuang untuk dapatkan kembali cintanya...dan saya berjaya...moga-moga kali ni saya berharap dia sudi berjuang bersama-sama saya, untuk mekarkan lagi perhubungan cinta ini.

Lucu apabila difikirkan saya dan dia selalu berperangai seperti kebudak-budakan...hanya untuk menagih perhatian dan belaian manja...Dia sememangnya manjakan saya dari dulu hingga sekarang...Dan itu membuatkan saya bertambah cintakan dia...

Setiap kali saya ada masalah, orang yang pertama yang sanggup berada di samping saya adalah dia, tidak kira waktu, tidak kira masa...walaupun dia tak dapat berbuat apa-apa, sekurang-kurangnya dia sanggup memeluk saya untuk pastikan yang saya bukan keseorangan..Dan itu juga membuatkan saya bertambah mencintainya...

Kerja-kerja saya memerlukan saya untuk sentiasa keluar outstation dan dia sanggup ambil cuti untuk bersama-sama saya.. Apabila dia ada hal yang x dapat dielakkan dan saya perlu keluar outstation di tempat yang jauh, dia akan menggelabah dan risau x menentu..Dan gelabah dan kerisauan dia itu memebuatkan saya bertambah cintakan dia...

Dia sanggup menitiskan air mata semata-mata kerana saya..Dan setiap titisan air matanya itu membuatkan saya lebih menyintainya...

Dan pengorbanan yang paling besar yang pernah dilakukannya adalah meletakkan saya di tempat yang paling selamat iaitu dalam hatinya...Dan pengorbanannya itu membuatkan saya bertambah mencintainya...

Dialah Mr.Right saya...
Dialah kawan saya...
Dialah hidup saya...
Dialah Mohammad Fadzil saya...

Zetty~~~

I am looking forward for what will happen....

What will happen in the future? None of us can foresee the future, but we can prepare for it..

If only u have a want, then u will live ur life to the fullest to achieve it..Well, berfalsafah plak...What I want in my future? Basically these are my goals:

1. Kumpul duit banyak2 and siapkan umah mak kat Terengganu (I really really wanna change my family's life, really want)
2. Get myself deeper into my hobby which is gubah BUNGA DIP... maybe boleh buat bunga pahar dgn doorgift sendiri..Next week, will start to buy those things yg diperlukan : plier, dip, thinner, dawai, glitters, glue, batang lidi, pelilit and bla bla bla)...will try to do it at work...and home too...

3. Buy myself a Canon D80, I want it..instead og buying an Ipad, I think my interest is not to Ipad anymore but more to photographing as I am rite now is too darn exciting in creating/altering image...harganya?? boleh tahanla, kena kumpul 2 bulan gaji kot baru boleh beli..yg ni tahun depan insya Allah, as tahun ni budget dah lari...
4. yang ni a bit blushing to tell..hehehe.. Get married to a lovely creature namely Mohammad Fadzil..yang ni mudah-mudahan diijabkabulkan seperti yang telah dirancangkan...
5. Get both of us, me and my other half to Seoul Korea... We want to stand under the sakura flower and experience it all by ourselves... Really really wants this also...Badly want this..Only me and him, far from other, far from works as our schedule is a little bit hectic rite now.....

Lastly, all I want is him to be next to me..To hold me forever..To love me eternally..Then my life would be wholely complete....

~Zetty~

What happened?

What happened? no clue, no idea, no-thing...huhuh

Recently, my other half is so darn busy being a busy bee..he wants to setup his own company and i am included in his company profile...Good for both of us..

Regardless the new company, we also in the midst of buying a new baby from Proton.. Alhamdulillah loan dah lulus and tgh menunggu kereta kuar ja.. But why am I feeling so empty?? No idea.. I feel nothing, despite he constantly request for my opinions. I feel hollow, being alone at home, at work, everywhere.. Worst, I feel unappreciated. Why? Being abandoned perhaps. I want to talk, but he is way too busy to have a minute for me. Dinner? No more outside dinner with him now. He is way too far to have dinner with me. Outing? Also no. And why is that? He is too tired after doing he's job and setup-ing the new company.

And me? being left behind one more time. Just like old time. I am so darn tired to keep thinking about our relationship..

It's alrite girl...just have it he's way and go to sleep..u'll forget everything by then.. Just go to sleep...Sleep...

Wait!!!! It's working time la... just do your work girl...

Just got a call from him..I wish I am ready for the worst.. Being asked to find someone else...Senangnya mulut bercakap....

Feel like wanna cry...I am crying....and if he wanna end up everything (maybe he wants to move his interest to something else, or to someone else)...Allah je yang tahu...

I really2 need a tissue rite now... :(

What a girl like me WANT!!!

What girls want from their lovers?

L - Loyalty and love that is only for her and not for anyone else. You have to understand that when a girl falls in love, she will devote hers 100% to you. All you need to do is feed her heart with love and loyalty.

O - Own her heart wholely by giving your fullest heart to her. Be a man of honor who understand the HEART WISH. Maybe she is too shy to share it with you but all she wants is to be your other half, where u can tolerate to each other. Own her heart by giving her space in your life also. That is what a girl truly wants from her lover.

V- very extaordinary relationship that u are putting urself with her. Be different, be impractical, be something new. A relationship will somehow face a critical situation where u and her did not agree in one matter. All you need to do is relax, let things go, and say I'M SORRY to her.. Simple, a girl will always accept her lover's apology because we are girls. That is what I want too...

E - Everything else is not important than ur hug that makes she feels secure, safe, loved, being cared, being truly understood. Embrace her like your skeleton embraces your heart, your liver, your inner organs.. Embrace her like a mother embraces her child, embrace her like your embrace yor own belongings..


See, that is what a girl wants from her lover.. Love her, loyal to her, and make sure you marry her... Because girls dont do those 'break up' things with her true love, but girls strive to avoid those 'break up' things even though she was the one yang ucapkan kata2 perpisahan...Apa yang perempuan nak? Pujuk la....Peluk dia...Pujukan dan pelukan seorang lelaki boleh dan pasti meredakan gelora dalam hati perempuan....

Till then,

Love your lover ~ Zetty~

Salam Lebaran dari Azzatie Intan Suraya

Few days ahead to Eid Mubarak and few days ahead untuk balik kampung....Hoorayy!! hahahahha gelak lagi gelak lagi...rindu sangat dah ni kat family, gelak lagi...hahahah...pastu tahun ni dapat pulak jmpa nenek sbb kami sekeluarga akan beraya di Kelantan Darul Naim...hahahaha gelak lagi (puasa nih...ishk ishk) haaaaa....penat gelak...My other half? huh no comment at all, as he will be in KL during Hari Raya..kena keja..Persiapan raya? Entahla, as I will reach my hometown malam raya, so x tau la boleh buat apa. My sis form JB dah smpai sana last week. Hopefully she knows how to kemas rumah...hahahaha...My mum called my few days ago and told me that she is waiting for me utk gubah bunga kat dia...Hias umah cantik2...I was like, sedeynyer.....mak tgh tunggu kat kampung...ikutkan hati nak je balik hari ni...tapi nak buat macam mner...Time study dulu blhla balik a week before Raya, or ponteng kelas balik two weeks before Raya, sekarang dah keje..kenalah bagi komitmen kat keje...Plus, takut nak tinggalkan my other half awl2, takut org kebas...hehehe...On my side of persiapan raya, I think dah cukup dah semua..Dah dapatkan 1 jubah modern warna hitam maroon untuk mak, sepasang baju Melayu warna Maroon utk abah, sepasang baju Melayu warna Maroon utk my bro Shah, baju Ben 10 + kasut Ben 10 untuk my cute brother Shafiq and Iqbal, a jewel lycra for my mum, two blue dress for my nieces (Ika and Irah), a black dress for adorable Ida, and a baju kurung cotton English yang sangat comel untuk Ida..not to forget, a handbag for my sis.. Fuhhh..basically, dah habis duit..tapi takpe habis untuk org tersayang bukan habis beli brg yang bukan2.. Duit raya? Duit raya mak dah dah seperate awl2, dah kasi awl2, but for anak2 sedara and my siblings?? glurrrppp...bg seringgit sorang bolehla..as I need to save for my upcoming event~ UTM Convocation after raya and before $$$!! Nak balik kelantan, paling kurang nak kena menyumbang jugak siket duit minyak..adoyai...Tapi x pelah..we'll see how nnti..Duit raya adik2 tu gaji bulan depan pun blh kasi.hehehehe...still bulan Syawal what...

As for me, I got a nice white + orange jubah modern from Pekan Rabu, Kedah...An Esprit bag, which I craved deadly, a smartphone, a Baju Kurung Thai Silk and tu je la...Kasut je xde lagi..Maybe nak gi cari hari ni kat Times Square.. hari tu ada tgk satu wedge heels tu...cantik....colour beige...tapi xtaula ada ke tak lagi...mesti ramai org, bencinyer shopping yg crowded ni...

Still cant wait for this Thursday, x sbr sgt nak blik Terengganu...rindunyer nak beraya, nak kemas umah smpai berpeluh-peluh, rindunyer nak pasang lampu kelip2, rindunyer nak iron baju raya utk adik2, rindunyer nak cucuk sate, rindunyer nak bangun pagi2 buta bakar sate...rindunyer nak salam mak abah pagi raya...

Salam Kerinduan,

Azzatie Intan Suraya

27hb Ogos 2010~Merayau tanpa hala tuju

As I'm typing this, I dont know what the hell happened between me and my other half.. Are we arguing? Perhaps..Over what? Dont know...I was just joking this morning tapi dia cakap 'belilah yg patut je..Jgn beli yg x patut', then I asked him, apa 'yang x patut dibeli tu?', then dia cakap 'nnti bgtau syg bangkang', pastu cakap x habis... I was so damn pissed off bila dia cakap x habis...Macam dulu, selalu berakhir dgn "OK"... What's with that "ok" actually, I dont understand and I dont like the way he talks to me.... I wanna talk, but he wont hear me, I wanna ask, but he makes fool of me..

Hari ni terus hilang mood nak buat kje...Tadi pegi Plaza Warisan, ingatkan nak cari Beauty Soap tu... Pastu skali that salesgirl recommendkan sabun Taharah ni...okla kot...That time mse that salesgirl brief me about the soap, I google sendiri pasal sabun tu via my newly bought HTC Wildfire...hehehehe, kinda like it...So, I bought the soap...Quite expensive la jugak for a stupid soap but tgk kat internet pun harga lagi mahal RM2...And what else I got for myself? Not much as my other half already warned me to control my spending... I was the one yang penant keje...Of course I wanna buy something for myself...But I got I pouch for my phone...together with a cow keychain...so cute...And a tudung to pair with my blue blouse...Xde tudung biru, tapi I beli selendang putih yang ada bunga2 biru..Cantik, beli kat Central Market...

And I think I want to break my fast kat luar kot...Tadi pegi pusing Petaling Street tu nak cari beg untuk my sis, but lastly I found baju raya for my brother and baju Melayu for my dad has yet to be discovered...X pusing2 kl beli barang raya lagi...Or maybe beli kat kampung je kot...and petang ni mybe bukak puasa kat luar, or kat office je kot...join akak kat office yg nak bukak puasa kat office sbb dia jaga parking malam ni...Dont have mood to talk to anyone especially him...Sedey bila dia buat macam tu actually..Sedey sangat bila dia buat x endah, xnak pandang, stop the conversation just like that...Sedey sgt2, rasa nak menitik je air mata ni...He dont understand me at all...Biarlah, balik nnti just tido, esok cuti..maybe I can take a walk to Summit kot...jumpa Fatimah jap..Lama x jumpa dia...

Sob~~ Sob~~~