SWAP test?

Yes...finally I have the bull to go to clinic and do the SWAP test..and it was deadly painful..

I was really hope that he was there by my side, but I was alone. Accompanied by tears, that runs freely when the doctor do the test. The doctor said there's a swallow inside my body, and she injected a pessary to melt it down, until then, I cannot do any PAP Smear test. And I am waiting for the result, I am waiting alone..

I guess man never understand what kind of pain girl's been through. That's why it is very important for girls to be independent. And why I said so, because I've tried to tell him, to make him understand what is going on inside me. But, seems like he take it for nothing only.

Right now I feel really really down, afraid, cold, hallow, too scared to know the test result, am I normal?It is true, just some kind of fungus affection or worst come to worst beyond that.

Another week to know the test, and I am hoping that he'll be there with me bacause I really need him that time.

It's been forever..

It has been forever I guess, since my last posting. And I still remember the password.

A lot of things have changed in my life. I moved to a new house, got a better job. Mostly all my wishes had come true. Except one, get married.

Yeah I'm still with him. Tuhan memang panjangkan jodoh kami, hopefully it will last until end of the time.

My daily life totally changed. I had brought my life to a whole new leve. And his life too. My First Focus Resources Sdn Bhd is 7 months old now. He is a success. To himself and to me.

I think not too late for me to wish HAPPY NEW YEAR 2012 to everyone in this world. A new year with 1 wish. To get MARRIED. Biarlah ikatan ini sah di mata Allah.

But here I am still sitting alone, waiting for him to have at least 1 hour time for me. And I am still putting hope on him.

He read this blog once, or twice maybe but now maybe he is too busy with his work. I am still hoping he'll read this blog. Especially dedicated to him.

By the way, we are going to Bandung on 15th February 2012. Hopefully he will spend some of his precious time with me.