SWAP test?

Yes...finally I have the bull to go to clinic and do the SWAP test..and it was deadly painful..

I was really hope that he was there by my side, but I was alone. Accompanied by tears, that runs freely when the doctor do the test. The doctor said there's a swallow inside my body, and she injected a pessary to melt it down, until then, I cannot do any PAP Smear test. And I am waiting for the result, I am waiting alone..

I guess man never understand what kind of pain girl's been through. That's why it is very important for girls to be independent. And why I said so, because I've tried to tell him, to make him understand what is going on inside me. But, seems like he take it for nothing only.

Right now I feel really really down, afraid, cold, hallow, too scared to know the test result, am I normal?It is true, just some kind of fungus affection or worst come to worst beyond that.

Another week to know the test, and I am hoping that he'll be there with me bacause I really need him that time.