My other half versus inner me

OMG OMG!! I just can't get over my other half. Miss him a lot tapi tak mahu cakap kat dia sbbnyer sekarang dalam proses take it easy.. I want to regain the fire in this relationship. I am thinking a lot about him recently. We did fight...over his silence...Aarrgghhh!!!Geramnya kenapa lelaki suka cakap 'takde apa'...Well guys, let me tell u something ok..girls hate when u say that. U left them hanging clueless exactly!!

So, tu lah yang terjadi. That time I was so damn pissed off, sedih kecewa, heart-broken when he just take me for granted only..I even told my mum, dgn sape lagi I nak luahkan..Menangis dengan my mum. even for the whole I menangis kat office when thinking of our relationship, risau kak Mizah dibuatnya...It's getting worse day by day. So, I said to myself, "Zet, kalau u sayangkan hubungan ni, u better stand up for u and for him, do something". And that night I wrote him a letter, luahkan segala-galanya dalam surat tu...I hope he can understand me. That's all. Then, surprisingly, he asked me for a dinner, katanya, "dah lama x bawak my wifey ni pegi makan malam". Sedar pun, hello!!! u abandoned me mister. then malam tu kita makan malam and I rasa dia cuma penat, no time for myself...It's alright sayang, I understand...

Cuma satu je yang I concern, about our engagement. Ntahla, no comment...few my frens did asked me what happened?xde invitation pun. some of the did mengkritik I sbb my unsuccessful engagement tu....I was like, kenapalah diorg ni nak tanya soalan mcm tu..Kalau your engagement was canceled, then I ask u the exact question, offended x? Tepuk dada tanya selerala bro.

But still, no reaction from him..Dia cakap nak bertunang selepas raya..Tgkla macam mana as my mum made me promised her that I xkan bangkitkan lagi hal pertunangan tu kecuali dia buka mulut. Ok, mum. I will never bangkitkan hal ni lagi. Berserah jela, kalau dia betul2 ikhlas, then he'll know what to do..I'll always be here waiting for him. Kadang2 I kesiankan diri I sendiri, waiting so long to get a 'fiancee' titlle. My mum je yang faham. Hari2 I call my mum and she'll ask me whether I'm alright or not. Even dia cakap suruh berhenti kerja, balik kampung, be part of the family again, my dad akan tanggung. I said, my rezeki kat sini, nak cuba dulu for few years, kalau tak boleh nak go on, then I akan balik ke Terengganu try kerja kat sana. sbb I sayangkan my mum. She knows what the best for me. Indeed, I am crying rite now when posting this blog.